Please let my life next year be much better than my life this year. Not that is is horrible, but it just seems that way sometimes. Not horrible, definitely not horrible--more a long the line of being almost unbearable. The monotony is getting crazier and crazier. I just can't help but somehow feel like Madame Bovary. She, too, lives in a boring little town while yearning for a cosmopolitan life in the city. Her feelings, though they are sometimes wrong, are a lot deeper and more profound than those around her. Yes, she cheats on her husband, but it is in search for idealized passion and fantasies. I don't like her ending. Hopefully my ending will be in a little cottage by the sea in the north of France where I can easily cross the English Channel to England if I'd like, surrounded by paintings and flowers.
Two years ago, I remember us girls planning our wedding and me saying, "If I were to have my wedding right now..." and describing my wedding plans. Back then, my bridesmaids would have been Mlle. Tran (the elder), Tran (the younger), Velasco, Smith, Johnston, Hatfield, Coleman, and Hai (my cousins Mlle. La and Truong and my sister are automatically in my wedding, so there's never a need to mention them).
If you were to ask me now, I would say none of them. I and Mlle. Tran (the elder), Johnston, and Coleman have drifted apart considerably to the point where I have to ask for pictures of the things Mlle. Coleman likes to get inspired by to design her prom dress. Mlle. Velasco doesn't even remember my birthday even though I've known her seriously for three years and I always remember hers and get her nicer presents than I get Mlle. Smith except for this year. Plus, she's too busy hanging out with her GAPP friends to hangout with me and Mlle. Smith anymore. Mlle. Hai is just weird and awkward and would seriously mess up the aesthetics. Plus, the others girls don't like her and she always forget to return my Amelie DVD. Mlle. Smith and I have an uneasy and superficial friendship going on where we both don't have any other close friends and must cling to each other to not appear like losers. I don't think we're real friends. I would invite her to my wedding though because I am awfully fond of her. Same with Mlle. Tran (the younger) and Mlle. Hatfield. I do like Mlle. Hatfield a lot. She has a very high chance of being my bridesmaid. But if she's my bridesmaid, I sort of have to ask Mlle. Smith also, and if I ask Mlle. Smith, I kind of have to ask Mlle. Velasco even though she's been a very bad friend lately, and with Mlle. Velasco comes Mlle. Yasakova because the four of us make a group. No, I think it is understandable if I ask Mlle. Smith and not Mlle. Velasco.
God, I'm such a bitch sometimes.
I found this dress that I really like. Almost as equally as the prom dress I've designed.
I really like the split hem. It elongates the legs and accentuates the simple allure of catching glimpses of skin. I kind of want to redesign my prom dress to something like this, but it'd be kind of hard to dance in something like this, yeah? I've got nice legs, and I wouldn't have to worry about whether or not my back decides to break out or not. I don't know. I'll see what I can do.
Two years ago, I remember us girls planning our wedding and me saying, "If I were to have my wedding right now..." and describing my wedding plans. Back then, my bridesmaids would have been Mlle. Tran (the elder), Tran (the younger), Velasco, Smith, Johnston, Hatfield, Coleman, and Hai (my cousins Mlle. La and Truong and my sister are automatically in my wedding, so there's never a need to mention them).
If you were to ask me now, I would say none of them. I and Mlle. Tran (the elder), Johnston, and Coleman have drifted apart considerably to the point where I have to ask for pictures of the things Mlle. Coleman likes to get inspired by to design her prom dress. Mlle. Velasco doesn't even remember my birthday even though I've known her seriously for three years and I always remember hers and get her nicer presents than I get Mlle. Smith except for this year. Plus, she's too busy hanging out with her GAPP friends to hangout with me and Mlle. Smith anymore. Mlle. Hai is just weird and awkward and would seriously mess up the aesthetics. Plus, the others girls don't like her and she always forget to return my Amelie DVD. Mlle. Smith and I have an uneasy and superficial friendship going on where we both don't have any other close friends and must cling to each other to not appear like losers. I don't think we're real friends. I would invite her to my wedding though because I am awfully fond of her. Same with Mlle. Tran (the younger) and Mlle. Hatfield. I do like Mlle. Hatfield a lot. She has a very high chance of being my bridesmaid. But if she's my bridesmaid, I sort of have to ask Mlle. Smith also, and if I ask Mlle. Smith, I kind of have to ask Mlle. Velasco even though she's been a very bad friend lately, and with Mlle. Velasco comes Mlle. Yasakova because the four of us make a group. No, I think it is understandable if I ask Mlle. Smith and not Mlle. Velasco.
God, I'm such a bitch sometimes.
I found this dress that I really like. Almost as equally as the prom dress I've designed.
I really like the split hem. It elongates the legs and accentuates the simple allure of catching glimpses of skin. I kind of want to redesign my prom dress to something like this, but it'd be kind of hard to dance in something like this, yeah? I've got nice legs, and I wouldn't have to worry about whether or not my back decides to break out or not. I don't know. I'll see what I can do.
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